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.Sunday, October 12, 2008 ' 6:43 PM Y

DEAR DIARY(((:

My life in this two month not so good for me , because in one month two things happen to me , if the thing is a good thing NVM but now the things i s very bad and sad for me lah , firstly there one guy in my head is like 4 month aldy , when i know him last 4 month , before he went to work for 4 month i was so happy when i mit him like i say , I never feel this happen in my life , when this guy came to me , i was shocked and surprise , this guy i mit is very kind and helpful and like to joke around lah , but i think i choose wrong or i am really STUPID i don't know lah CONUFSED if lah , i hope i have the answer one day mayb i never think lah this !!!, i alwayz ask myself this questions every single day :"WHY I MUST THINK SO MUCH AND THINK BOUT THE PERSON UNTIL NOW THE PERSON I NEVER HEAR ANY NEWS "and i think mayb the person have change behaviour and forget his friends at work and one more thing my heart alwayz keep telling me to 4get the person and go on with life but i keep looking aka thinking !! The person treat me well before the person go for work almost 4 month, i ask the person "how are you " almost 2 times but too bad for me no reply from the person , i never think NEGATIVE cuz i know that nothing will happen !!! , (Umairah selalu berdoa semoga doa Mai tercepat satu hari nanti , ini lah satu satu dalam doa mai selama ni , mai harap sangat satu hari mai punye doa akan datang Satu hari nanti !!! ), Insyallah Allah akan tolong Nur Umairah Amin!! and i am not desperate lah not so much , i juz want to know why must this happen to me this year , I keeping this secret or aka my story by myself and smtime with my work friends and schoolmate ..

Dan yg kedua ialah , Umairah baru dapat berita ni dalam BULAN PUASA dari my wonderful cuzz , UMAIRAH tak sangka org pun boleh bual2 belakang Mairah juga , Mairah skg tak tahu nk percaya kan sape skg , Banyak masalah Umairah terlah lalu bulan ni , NASIB mai agar nye , mai selalu tanye tanya diri sendiri yang kenape org kena becik mai , kalau becik sekali pun , MAI MINTA MAAF BANYAK2 . mairah selalu berdoa yang mai dapat jawapan dari org yang cakap mai punye behaviour BURUK . Until now i still want to know why U say my behaviour is bad and why must talk behind my back seh , what i do wrong to you also i don't know !!!! is like making more worst for me !!!!, i don't know if u notice this or not , i alwayz ask u so many question bout my behaviour at work but u still say my behviour is normal and like to smile , when u say that , i was wondering whether to beleive my cuzz or you,so CONFUSED lah , i hope to know the truth from both party , which one is TRUTH? plz lah , don't let me think so much ...lah