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.Tuesday, December 23, 2008 ' 9:31 PM Y

DEAR DIARY(((:

What Happen TO my LIFE this YEAR?

Why my life this year is so bad Luck , During Bulan Puasa org cari pasal ehk now end of this year also ppl want to hate me what i do wrong to you ?

This story is like this During my Fasting Month , so many people test my patient , nvm about that time , cuz is very long aldy , i can not like think too much aldy , Fatsing MOnth is on September rite , so October there a new prob , i fight with someone , we were so good during Jalan Raya , den after that day we talk, and another several days he start to fight with me, he call me so many BAD name, i was so angry with him , we fight for 2 month aldy but now he ask me to leave him alone , so i leave alone him lol, that what he want what ,and he also say he that (i am not suppose to say in this blog) . Now i got new prob but my prob with him have not settle yet , so i want to make sure that i settle with him soon as possible, b4 i got to new school , i know he ask me leave him alone, but i see him everybody he still kind to me, i think he got two person haha.. outside he kind and during MSN he is very rude , funny leh,

But Nvm , i juz have a new prob , On 22 Dec , i am working that day . but i nv work at TECC i attach at TN3 cuz their crew go 4 outing so i go there lol , that day i am so happy , make so many friendz , i make friends from TWCC , Pasir Ris , TM ,. they are so funny , especially TN3 manger , he is so funny and until i cough no stop, he is very kind to us , i also have a great time to make new friends, at the first time , the whole day 11am-7.30pm i work counter only , never change at all, Not like, my work, like to change , i work TN3 after my break i still go counter , nv change , like my work, after break i have to work kitchen lah or fries station , .... i am so fed up that i want to work at tecc at new station still have not work yet , i request so many time still manager look down on me , so bad , i want to to try to do new station , but they still look down on me .... i Dunno why they look down on me,

NVM bout that ya get back to my story , after work that day , my adik call me and i in toliet , so i pick up and say i am juz finish work . and my adik say cepat alik , den he put down the phone , so i juz rmb that i gt to go to my nenek house to take smthg , b4 that i go mac 4 a while to check with manager that i work to on eve day and christmas day but eve i nv work , so i finish checking i went to nenek house lah , i was rushing , so when i get the things , i straight away walk so fast until i can cuz i know what will happen at home , while i walk , My home call, and i dun know who call , so i say lah " Da nk Alik da" den another 2 min ltr , my Mum call and she say smthg lah , so i juz listen lol , and when i reach home , u know lah , i kene beaten lol , but the beaten not bout that day leh , it is about on Sunday night , i finish work on sunday 21Dec at 10pm , so after work o sit outside mac 4 a while , so ard 10.15pm like that my siz and bf come to mac to eat lol they are from Stadium , so i am not shocked they came here , so nvm lol , they came here to eat lol , so ard 10.30pm i went back first lol , esther ask me why i nv go home with my siz and i say nvm lol i go home first , so i got the feeling there must be smthg wrong one day , she sure tell my parent so the nxt day , my thought is not wrong, my thought every time also correct wan no wrong , so that day 22 Dec , i kena scold about the story on sunday , i sit at mac i nv do anything , juz sit there for a while , so i wondering , why this prob now happen , i got the feeling that , there someone must tell my background to my close one , must be , and i think i know who aldy .. that day that is 22 Dec accident i will never 4get what happen , i want to ask the person that i think is him , i want to ask him is it truth what in my thought now? my prob with him not yet settle yet , i can ask him bout this also , this all can not come true if i nv know him the first time , i thought he is kind and nice but my thinking is wrong, many crew dun like him , they say his attitude is bad , so i dun care also , cuz i dun care lah ..... Lucky my phone nv be take away for very long , juz a while , the prob and question i be asking myself is below:

1) Why this person do this to me?

2) Why he dislike me alot i have nv do anything to him ?

3) Why in my life ppl like to scold me if i nv do wrong ?

4) Asal org suke salah kn Mairah ape yg mai tak uat ? (Y ppl like to blame everything on me?)

5) And in my life i alwayz kena scolding ? why?

There somemore

But this question it have not be solve , i alwayz ask my self this 5 question everyday , but it have not be solve yet , i dunno i pray everyday , but i think One day someboday will tell me the answer......

This question nw i also asking myself too:

I try to be nice to new friendz but when they know my background that is not true they 4get me and stop being my friends, all the gosip they heard all is not true ..... but so far that prob is going off aldy , now i make new friends at work at other work also , TN3 , TM , TWCC , Pasir Ris....... i hope no body try to make my life more wrost .. plz lah , Mind ur own business , juz leave my life alone, i need to be alone , don't make my life more wrost please , my life now not so good , please lah ...............

IF TRUE THAT U DO ALL THIS ,Leave me Alone , Juz be in ur life ,,,,,, Don't disturb me .... STOP IT !!! I DON'T KNOW IF TRUE OR NOT JUZ THAT I THINK IS IT !!

Please I need to live my life