DEAR DIARY(((:

As i publish my middle of jan stuff is out aldy now my new prob come is also in the middle of jan.I know lah I am so so stupid and people like to take advantage of me but why hate me and u still can tell secret , u know people secret early then my mine , u juz know my secret this year , but i don't understand why u tell ? i also never tell u my secret u find it urself but does not mean u can tell people especially ur close ones .why u take advantage or revenge is it? Plz like y u hate me ? Kalau Becik Bilang i will run away and kalau nk revenge why put this part , ur secret i never tell them u noe .. This is what happen if i totally trust people , i don't know like Is been many years i trust people but start last year aldy people lie to me i hilang trust on people , is like better keep by myself but if i keep by myself i will stress cuz i no one to share with if i think that way .

I am trying to change my own way already , I don't really care about people , u see what happen ? u make me do this , u really make me never trust anybody , when i see u at work i remember what u say to me last year , i don't really want to rmb all the SHIT u say u know , but i canot really invisble rite when ever i got work i alwayz saw ur face at work , and also my bestfriend ask me to 4get it but how to 4get it , u have not MAAFKAN I . Until u have acccpt my MAAF then i can not stop thinking , plz lah , i know u 4get all this but me leh , u told me to STOP IT ,i am trying okok .......

so far i am 4getting u now cuz there someone has cool me down and think ask me to think positive .

I have make a new friends that is very kind to me . Is been 1 week already since the person ask me . When that day we meet he is very friendly and we share our problem and the best part is This is my first time a guy that understand my feeling and he help slove my problem , is been 1 year to find a guy like this very diffcult like this. i know everyguy is different , but this guy is very different from others guy that i know for very long , I know that he talk about his stuff alot but he also not the type of guy i am thinking about ,